So it’s been a ridiculously long time.
I suck.
I no longer have my amazing boyfriend that I mentioned last time. It took me over two months to get over him, but I did it. Probably helped that after I drove two hours to see him last month, he introduced me to his new girlfriend. And that just drew the line for me. Not because I saw he’d moved on.. I already knew about her even if he never told me she was his girlfriend; it was pretty obvious from the fact that he constantly talked about her and such. Just.. what an asshole move, you know?
Granted, apparently he was unaware that I wasn’t over him, but still. I didn’t need to see his happiness when I was miserable. Or maybe I did.
And the day before I saw him I had a semi one night stand, I suppose. Well, one night and day? Some friends and I went bowling, and my friend Sarah brought two of her neighbors. I thought one of them was cute and we talked a lot that night. I’d been saying since Brice and I broke up that I needed a cute guy to make out with. But the thing is I’m nowhere near bold enough to actually tell someone I want to make out with them.
So after we got done bowling, Sarah and I and her neighbors (Mike and Dave) went back to the guys’ place and played Rock Band on the Xbox. We were all drinking, too (and I purposely drank a little more to give myself that boldness I don’t have), and after Sarah left to go home to bed, I told Mike I wanted to make out with him, and then after Dave went to bed, too… well, yeah. I ended up actually staying the night with him, and then pretty much the whole next day until I had to go to work.
He even made me breakfast and bought me lunch that day.
And, god, for like three days after that I just wanted action so badly. It’s like that episode of Grey’s Anatomy where Izzie is talking about forgetting how much you love sex until you have it again and then you constantly want it. Even if there was no sex involved (hence why I called it a “semi one night stand”). Same concept.
But, alas, he never called me, and it’s been like three weeks or so. So my conclusion is that he won’t call me. And I’m okay with that. It’s not like I knew him well enough to like him all that much, but.. well let’s just say I had a REALLY good time…
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