I feel like I’m about to die. My lungs feel like… you know how when you’re throat is really dry it’s really hard to like eat because the food likes to not go down? Well that’s how air feels going into my lungs. It all started Wednesday after my dad picked me and my mom up from the airport and he started smoking. And I haven’t been able to breathe well since then. And I have this constant headache, too. I hate feeling like this.
New York was awesome. At least I didn’t feel bad at all when I was there. Except for that little bit of extreme sadness after my UCLA audition (the really, really important one) that I did absolutely horrible at. I forgot the monologue. Just one more reason to hate Shakespeare. I wish that I had only needed just a plain classical monologue. I wanted to do one from Sophocles’ Electra. But no, it had to be 17th to 19th century. And although I found a monologue I really liked (Shall I speak ill of him that is my husband - Juliet from R+J), I completely screwed it up. And now I have no chance of getting in. I mean, yeah, everybody has bad auditions, but college is a lot bigger deal than like if I didn’t get a part in a show or whatever.
My USC and NYU auditions went wonderfully though. Had them both laughing on the comedic monologue. One asked if I had done it in a show, which I haven’t. So that’s good I guess. Still not a for sure thing, of course, because there’s always someone who’s better or whatever.
Wicked… Wicked was so good. It was nothing like I expected it to be, and yet it was all I expected it to be at the same time. If that makes sense. I cried through like the whole last fifteen minutes. It was just so real that I couldn’t stop myself. And that song, For Good, it’s so much more emotional than it ever was just listening to the soundtrack. Words can’t even describe how good that show was. And for anyone planning to see it, be prepared for a big twist on the story. Other than the twists you already know about.
I got to see Rent, too. Drew Lachey was starring in it. His acting left much to be desired, but hey, the singing was good. Then again, he did have a professional singing career long before he tried acting. I wish people didn’t get parts just because they’re already famous or whatever. It would have been so much better had the part been done by an actual actor, not a singer. I almost laughed when I read his bio in the program. It said something along the lines of “After landing a principle role on MTV’s Newlyweds…” I was like… it’s a reality show about his brother’s life. There was no audition for him. He’s a part of his brother’s life. He’s going to be on the show. Whatever.
So now it’s time for me to go up the stairs, get out of breath doing so (one flight does that to me now), and learn all that I missed in Physics last week. Since I have a test Monday, that would be a good thing to actually know what’s going on.
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