Oh my God I can’t believe this…
So last year around this time I had a boyfriend. The only boyfriend I’ve ever had. And before we got together… before I even actually liked him, we used to joke about having sex because it made his roommate really uncomfortable and it was funny. So then I actually started to like him, and we still joked anyway.
So currently, my friend Sarah likes him and he likes her back. Kristy said something about snuggling in the car, and so I said something about being uncomfortable like she was last year when she was riding home with me (I ride home with her now). And so she brings up the joking about having sex thing.
And so now all my friends are convinced I actually wanted to have sex with Michael, even though I was just joking. And truthfully, I didn’t. And now the only thing I can think about is Skory, since he is the only guy I’ve ever actually felt like that about.
I just wish I could see him. It probably sounds totally pathetic, but I still really really like him. I don’t know why this feeling has lasted for so long. It shouldn’t. I shouldn’t still be thinking about him every day. I haven’t seen him since August, but I can still picture his face in my mind without looking at his picture at all.
Is something wrong with me? Should I still be hurting over the fact that he told me I was too young for him in July? It seems like so long ago, but it feels like it happened yesterday. I need to stop torturing myself. Why can’t I just do that?
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